❝ You have to accept that some people are not made for deep conversations, or for holding you together when you’re about to fall apart, or for keeping you from unzipping your skin, or for talking you out of suicide, or to love you through the worst moments of your life. Some people are made for shallow exchanges, and ridiculous banter, and nothing more. And that’s okay. That doesn’t make them horrible people because they simply aren’t able to handle a storm like you. It doesn’t make you a bad person because you won’t divulge all the gritty details of your horror show. It makes you smart. You have to accept that there will be people that cannot give you what you need. It doesn’t mean they are not worth keeping in your life. You just have to figure out who these ones are before you’re disappointed. And you have to keep them at arm’s length. You cannot expect everyone in your life to understand, to be nonjudgmental, to get it. But that’s okay, because not everyone was made to impart wisdom, or wax-poetic, or speak on politics and the depravity of society, or discuss how crucial it is that the stigma of mental illness be abolished. There are times when you have to get away from all that heaviness. You have to. And you will need superficial conversation about Kim Kardashian’s arse, or a debate on the color of The Dress. You will need those ones. So don’t go round cutting people off and dropping your friends. You need people for all your seasons. You need people or you won’t survive this. ❞

—Anonymous, What my therapist told me this morning
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The Associate by John Grisham

I vowed to finish all of the Grisham novels at home while am on break from school, so here it is. I finished the book in a matter of hours. Grisham obviously have the knack for packing his novels with interesting characters and plots which makes it really hard for you to put the book down. The Associate wasn’t different, however, I am disappointed how things ended. A lot of loose ends to say the least. Questions that needs answer, the very reason you stuck to it until the end only to find out that they weren’t answered which was very frustrating because it sort of murdered all of your expectations from the book and the author. For instance, who was the partner at the firm who was also spying for Bennie Wright? What was the organization that finances the expensive espionge job of BW? What happens to Kyle McAvoy now that he’s declined the witness protection program? These and more. Things just fizzled out and you certainly are wishing that there should be a sequel to this book considering the knots that weren’t resolved, sadly there is none. Am giving this a 5/10 rating.

I don’t know where to put this comment from the paragraph that I just made, but I need to acknowledge the portrayal of a depressed person in the character of Penny McAvoy, Kyle McAvoy’s mother. Totally forgotten the lines which accurately depicted how it’s like to live in depression. There were lines that said “in her sad little world” , “she is medicated so she acted decently” things like that.

the associate